Amani, ‘12

Hanging in there, Prospectives?

I sure hope you are, even though this part of the year is such a mixture of joy, frustration, and decisions.  With college and scholarship letters rolling in, and maybe still some applications going out, sometimes this is the most emotionally stressful time of your senior year.  But no worries—I have faith in you all. 
Hopefully you’ll be hearing back from UR soon, if you haven’t already.

For me, things are going pretty good.  February has been quite busy, yet so short.  I celebrated my 20th birthday and once again reflected on the fact that time truly waits for no man—we have to live our lives to the fullest every single day.  I also realized that I am slowly but surely progressing into that stage of on-your-own adulthood that has, before now, seemed so far off, but that is actually closer than I think.  I don’t know how to feel about getting older and officially losing the last bit of childhood and adolescent freedom that I could still lay claim to as a teen.  A beloved chapter has closed, and a new, yet-to-be-explored chapter is opening before my eyes. 

This new stage is a bit nerve-wracking.  Another year older, I see that I don’t have all the time in the world to figure out what I want to do, who I want to be, or how I want to get to where I want to go.  What makes it even more complicated is that I realize that as time progresses, I am forced more and more to rely on myself as opposed to looking to others as I have in years past.  It’s a change that takes some getting used to, but a change that is necessary and beneficial to my present and future well-being.

Life’s not always easy or understood, but it’s definitely worth living.

Amani